Subjective Reality?

History: Doomed to repeat its self?

Or

Are we a self-fulfilling prophecy?

Is this the beginning of “the end times”? Maybe.

Are we following in the foot steps of the Romans?

OR

Have we been conditioned into believing that the end of the world is coming, therefore – the world is beginning to end.

(I say neither)

But what does that really mean?

Growing up in a religious household I was indoctrinated to believe at an early age that there would be an end – the apocalypse, the rapture, Armageddon.

A time when those that chose an external source for their redemption are lifted up in to the sky, leaving those who rejected this external source on earth to suffer through the ruling of an anti-Christ and a final war to end all wars…

And then comes my favorite part and by favorite part I mean the part that kept me scared shitless as a child.

Judgment Day.

-       The time when we all stand before God – the great judge. Where your fate is then decided. Did you lead a good life? Did you accept Jesus into your heart as your lord and savior? You better hope so…. You better hope you didn’t sin too much…

Because if you didn’t – Tough shit, you get thrown into a lake of fire and burn eternally.

      What is that? You grew up in a different culture and completely different religion? Sorry, in the lake.

What about all the people in the world who go through their entire lives without hearing “the word”? In the lake with them – there simply are no exceptions. You must just accept that this is the way things are.

But not if your saved… If your saved – you float up to heaven to live eternally with other people who chose to accept this external source and of course didn’t do too much sinning…

Too bad for those who aren’t saved… Into the lake with them – Good riddance.

But then what is life without the ones you love that aren’t saved? Is that really heaven? To dance with the guy with the long hair and a beard with the blue and white robe eternally?

Some say yes.

My heart says no.

My soul says no.

I say no.

I guess I never really had the choice then? To just simply accept something that had always felt foreign to me.

I think this is where the complex begins or maybe where it began for me.

By simply learning to accept a doctrine because it seemed right even though it never really made a whole lot of sense. It left me confused – nothing taught in church really resonated with me.

The only times I felt an effect from the messages, the kind where you feel “Spiritually awakened” at least for a brief moment… were motivated by fear and guilt. Fear of burning in hell, fear of not being righteous enough in the eyes of God. Guilt for the sins I had committed. Guilt for actions I took out of impulse, stupidity, desire, passion and an endless list of other reasons I could not understand.

This is where the disconnect enters.

Because some believe that in this world you can do whatever you please and as long as you accept Jesus in your heart and try you’re best to do right by each other then “everything’s cool.” The keys to the Kingdom are yours. Right? No.

This is a common misinterpretation – Or so I’ve been told by some who consider themselves “True believers.”

I believed in this interpretation for a little part of my life because it was one of the only ways my mind could make sense of this indoctrination that was so deeply rooted into my mind.

Or maybe life is a little bit more subjective than some people might want you to think. Maybe life isn’t so cut and dry? Black and White?

Or maybe it is? Who am I to say? What do I really know?

Nothing really… The older I get and the more I learn, the more I find this to be true.

What I do know is that all throughout my life – I learned lessons – NOT by being told not to do something “just because… the bible says so… or I say so..”

But not to do something because the last time I did it there was a negative consequence.

That’s right – As I grew up the most important lessons I learned were based purely off of my own personal experience, not someone else’s experience or opinion or hidden motivations.

From experiencing the emptiness, the void, the darkness – you experience true appreciation for the light and love.

The eternal spectrum of dark and light, good and evil.

So what is a spectrum? It is “A band of colors, as seen in a rainbow, produced by the separation of the components of light by their different degrees of refraction according to wavelength”

What does this mean exactly?

A spectrum is a range that encompasses everything, it is the entire picture. The Big picture.

This means that light cannot exist without darkness and that darkness cannot exist without light.

Duality – or at least the illusion of duality (in the realm of the physical).

A wave and a particle.

Because really that is all you are, the summation of subatomic particles and waves coming together as one.

So if that is the way that our biology operates. Then is that not the way in which we should all be operating as well?

Coming together, working together as one with full recognition that we really are one. Regardless of what we were raised to believe. Regardless of what others want us to believe. Understanding that even though the physical realm of matter may trick us by making us think we are all different and superior to each other – we in fact all have within us a ball of light that you could call your soul, which comes from the same singular source that which animates us. (Obviously this is my subjective opinion based purely on my own experience, intuition and what resonates with me within my soul.)

One blue ball floating in a space that is ever expanding – the possibilities without end.

But just because this is what feels right to me, does not necessarily mean that is what may sound right to you, because this is a conclusion that I have come to based simply on my own experience living on this earth for a short 24 years. And since no one person will have the exact same experience on this earth there is no way that everyone will come to the exact same conclusion.

The KEY is learning to trust and believe in what sounds true to YOU. Not what other people believe or may try to force down your throat.  Not what people thousands of years ago believed. Not what people want you to believe that are bent on control, keeping you in a constant state of distraction and feelings of numb apathy.

Listen to the voice inside your head that says, “this is all wrong, this is not the way things are meant to be. We are not meant to live this way – we are not meant to live our lives disconnected from one another, operating simply from our (false)egos which tell us that we are all that is and that you yourself are above everyone else. Because you are all that matters.

Because in reality – we are not. We may be more fortunate than others based purely on fortune, coincidence, chance, chaos. The random crashing and colliding of subatomic particles in an infinite space.

We are all on this earth together and we all want to be happy.

In this life – everyone is given some sort of direction. You can either choose to question this direction and find out what your true direction is (which is UP to YOU, choosing free will above accepting fate). Or you can blindly follow a path laid out for you by someone else, with their own goals and their own selves in mind (whether that person is alive now or died a thousand years ago makes no difference). Leading an empty life, wondering,” what if I had done something else? What if I had met other people? Would it all be different? The answer is yes. The world is full of endless probabilities.

So turn off your tv and start listening to the inner voice… The voice that speaks to you in your dreams… The voice that uses events in your life as metaphors to teach you lessons.

We are all connected.

We are all one.

Find out what your true desire is and start living your life by your own terms, not by the definitions of what your life should be which has been created by others.

 So Do.

Be.

Create.

It's what we are meant to do!

In the end, there is only you.

In the end, the only person judging you is yourself.

So, what are your intentions?

They are what define your life, they are what can make your life one of heavenly existence or a life in hell.

In the end, the choice is yours.